Yeah, I don't like being poor, but I am really. I'm an intelligent person (maybe some will disagree lol), but I've never been good at social situations and suffer from social anxiety and avoidance disorder, so it's held me back in life, but I'm ok with it, cause I don't really have the drive (especially at my age) to have a big important stressful life with a wife and kids and all of those worries.
I mean I have a car, cable, internet and phone, eat pretty well, have a small house and will be hopefully owning a $4000 guitar. I don't have a big income, but I should be inheriting 100k. I'm relatively happy, but I don't know how much longer I'll be alive truthfully. My father and grandfather both died in their mid 50's and I'm now 44, so I have a very different outlook on life than most men my age. I'm going to try to live into my 70's or 80's, but I really don't know if I will, nor do I know if I'd really want to. Well, I mean I want to, but I want to be healthy and able to live fairly comfortably at that age. I wouldn't even mind living in a retirement community because since I'm pretty much a loner, I'd have lots of people to talk to and life would be ok. I've always liked older people, so hopefully when and if I'm older I'll still like them!
Money is a means to an end, it doesn't excite me that much really. Even the 100k that I may inherit doesn't do much for me other than maybe I can buy that guitar and a new used car or something. Most of it I'm going to save since I don't have a large income like I mentioned. I admire my 92 year old grandmother who recently passed. She was a very financially poor woman who lived mainly on a 160 dollar pension plus 800 a month ss. She didn't have to pay rent since she owned the 4 flat house that she lived in up until 90 years old, but she always had food and everything else she needed and was very happy. She had LOVE and had many people around her that loved her and that's why SHE WAS RICH!
She had nothing as far a money, but she was INWARDLY rich! NO ONE in her 92 years would think any different of her if she was a millionaire! And guess what?? She made it relatively comfortably right up to 92 years of age on $900 a month income on her own!! Yes, I helped her to shop each week and took her to doctors appointments and called her EVERY NIGHT to talk with her and visited her every week sometimes twice a week or more, but she made it to 92! And before dementia got a hold of her for the last 2 years of her life she was relatively happy in life due to the family she had around her, she didn't need lots of money to be happy and even if she had she would've "given it to us kids to enjoy" as she had often said in her old age! Money didn't excite her, she had everything she needed and I'm very proud of her for that and look up to her! She my inspiration!
I feel that I am the same way. I am poor financially, but inwardly I am so curious and rich and fulfilled and love life and people to the fullest. Money almost seems like a big joke to me really. I don't need it to maintain my inward richness! I could be laying in the street with absolutely NOTHING and I'd still be rich inside and be the same person I am now. I'd still have love for my fellow man and weep for those that have little in life. I realize that we need money to live and in this day and age need quite a bit of it, but I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE to it, nor will I let it define WHO I AM or WHAT I'M WORTH!! I will not let society tell me that because I don't have a big income or a fancy house that I'm not good enough, smart enough, or just as worthy as those with loads of money. Nor do I care that a woman would think less of me without a big paycheck. I wouldn't even waste my time with that type of woman!
Now what to do with that 100k is the question .... I'm going to be very frugal. I also work two jobs and try to save as much as I can. I'm happy! If I was all alone living in a two room apartment with no car though I think I'd still be my same old carefree happy self!
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