I am finding busking helps to control anxiety, mostly through just simply exposing my self to playing where some one might be listening. I have found that if I go out to public space, no amplifier, the volume is of course much less, and people who are interested, and there is always a few, you can count on children, being so less inhibited than all of us nut case adults, are likely to notice and want to stop and listen. Anyway, people get close enough to hear, and that gives some good experience in actually performing. I have played for my Dad, who passed away earlier this year, at his retirement home, just in his room. Folks there must have overheard me, and I was offered a chance to play for the seniors there. So I have played there twice now, and I have a regular gig; pays $ 60 each time, one hour of music.
Even with the experience I have earned lately, I offered to play at a local " Porchfest", in my town. On my own front porch, where I have played before. I was not prepared for the level of nervousness I felt, and I butchered my first piece, Bach Prelude in G , but I made it all the way through, too bad I screwed up the last measures. The barking dog didn't help me none. This is hard to look at, and it is only a fragment, and I would not post this anywhere else, and I do in fact know how to play this piece, i was just really nervous. I am waiting for the MOV file to convert, I will post this train wreck once it does.