"You may not believe that you have a "self", ...."
Actually, I did not say that I do not belief that I have a 'self', or there was no such thing as the 'self'. In fact, I don't believe it. I know it. My argument was that there is
a body, and there is
a 'self', but that in my reality the two are inseparable, and part of the whole. If I do not have either body or 'self'', I do not have anything, for without one I do not have the other. And with that there is no me
. As I say, in my
However, I acknowledge that some other people experience a different reality than mine, where for example there exists for them other 'selves' in a single body. I'm talking about schizophrenics. Their world is alien to me, and if I say that I see the world in 3D then they see it in 4D, for instance. I cannot fathom how this can transpire, or figure out how
it is possible. But that does not change one fact, it is real.
Looking at the first part of your question, as you express it, "Why am I here ....", I think the responses, including mine, to that have been as if the question was "How
is it that I am here instead of someone else?", which is interesting in itself. The Philosopher's Why is often a tougher opponent than the Physic's How.
It was St Patrick's Day very recently, and within the famous Breastplate attributed to him are these words:
I arise today, through
The strength of heaven,
The light of the sun,
The radiance of the moon,
The splendor of fire,
The speed of lightning,
The swiftness of wind,
The depth of the sea,
The stability of the earth,
The firmness of rock.
I wish you well, and hope you find your answers.